Eyes Wide Open is live!

Well it has been since August 11th and yes I should have written a post much sooner, but I left my house bright and early August 12th to go in for brain surgery. Why the hell would you release your book the day before brain surgery a lot of people have asked. It’s a very interesting and frustrating story. My surgery was supposed to be in June which would have given me time to heal before release day and fully get to enjoy it. My surgery was rescheduled three times in June and kept getting canceled. All summer I waited for a new date. I figured it wasn’t happening until fall so I plugged on making sure EWO was as perfect as possible. Less than a week before release day I got the call that surgery was scheduled for the 12th. My heart dropped to my feet. I almost changed release day, but to me, not only did that feel like I was letting Chiari (the condition I live with) win, but I felt like I was letting my fans who were waiting for this book down. So, I posted on my author page that I was going in for surgery, that I was still publishing as expected, but I was sorry I wouldn’t be around for a little bit to celebrate with everyone.

Luckily for me I have an amazing admin who has kept my page running as I’ve been healing. She kept my fans up to date on my surgery and healing as well as running giveaways. You realize at times like this that you’re only one person and you can’t do things alone.

My street team took over all the marketing of my books and spread my name everywhere. I didn’t have to ask. They all did this out of the goodness of their hearts.

Family, friends and neighbors came together to help my husband with my kids, cook meals and simply just check in on how I’ve been doing. It’s been amazing to watch the outpouring of love. I’m actually overwhelmed by it all.

Slowly, I’m getting better. Each day I feel a little stronger. I’ve even been able to check in and leave posts on my author page a few times which makes me happier than I can tell anyone. Just being able to connect to people is its own form of healing. I know I still have a ways to go until I’m totally myself again, but I’ll take every small victory along the way.

Thank you to everyone who has sent messages of well wishes, who has been here for me in anyway and for all the messages about how you feel about EWO. I love when I get a chance to log in and read them or when my hubby logs in for me and reads them to me. You all make my heart smile!

I’m still a Newbie

Being a newbie author you learn so much, but the biggest thing I’ve learned is… you keep learning. Every time I think I’m getting the hang of this author stuff I realize I have a whole lot more to learn. It’s fun and it’s frustrating at the same time. It’s fun because I get to talk to so many amazing authors who I look up to, but it’s frustrating because I have to wade through all the information and figure out what is stuff that could potentially harm me. It’s a lot to take in. I’m made some good decisions and I’ve made some not so good decisions since I started on this journey, but what I’ve come to realize is that as long as I make every decision with with good intentions then I shouldn’t have regrets.

As I get ready to release my second book I don’t feel like much less of a newbie as I did releasing my first book. Yes, I know a lot more than I did the first time around, but I still have so much more to learn. The biggest thing that’s changed since my first book is new authors now come to me for advice. It’s amazing when they do, but it’s scary too. I only hope that the advice I give helps them.

My advice to you, as a reader, never be afraid to take a chance on your self. If you have a dream- chase it. I did and I haven’t regretted it for one second. It’s a lot of work, but it’s even more fun!

~Renee